The Peace That Passes Understanding

So, this is it. I have anticipated this night for months now. "The night before". It's hard to say what's ahead of me, only the Lord knows. I can honestly say, I have no idea what to expect, and usually that would be scary, especially for me because though I am a very spontaneous person, I like lists and color coordination and for things to be thought out.. but tonight I feel peace, for I know whatever is before me is in the Lords hands completely. I am no longer in control.. I am super comfortable here, where I am, but that is the thing, I don't want to be comfortable. You know that feeling before you try something new? That one where a pitted knot develops in your stomach then your hands start to get clammy and everyone is looking at you as if you were that one kid with the pitted knot in their stomach and the clammy hands....that was my attempt at a joke, I will be making a lot on here over the next 5 months. But really, we all get that feeling before trying something that were not familiar with... Well, after you conquer that fear, or climb that 'mountain" you get the greatest high, and you know there's no going back to your old self before you made that grand attempt.Well, I know there will be times when I’m discouraged or my hopes will be disappointed, but that only means that my trust and dependency on the Lord must increase. I have been told by previous missionaries that when they are there they don’t see the difference that their service is making. That is really discouraging, but after talking with God about it, and reading a lot, I am convinced that, I would rather work and keep at work than to do nothing. I don’t know who will prosper this or that, but I know who wouldn’t if I did nothing. I am so excited to build a personal relationship with my kids and everyone there!  I will be teaching second grade. I have never taught any grade before to be honest, and it’s not even my emphasis in college. I don’t know if I will be a grand teacher, but I will do my best. What I do have to offer them, is love. I don’t know them yet, but I already love them all. I really want to encourage them and help them to see God and the loving father He is. Plant a seed each day in their hearts and minds and God will take care of the rest. I am His instrument, and with God, you never know what jobs He has up His sleeve for his workers, but you know that he will be working right there next to you. I’m alright with that. More than alright :)